othellovonryan | Seasons Inbox

Fair enough. It's a pretty typical story to want to ditch the feelings when you love someone who doesn't love you back, or so I've read.

He wants to be friends and I do too. Not easy when it just keeps getting my hopes up, so all I am is miserable all the time. He wouldn't want me to be hurt, he'd probably flip if he found out I am, so I figure it's easier to just stop feeling this way.

I've been trying to get my feelings to listen to reason, but they seldom do.

It is a very common ailment.

[There is a pause.]

It isn't easy. Its really not easy. It takes a lot of telling yourself that it isn't what they want. That they need you to be something else. Even when it goes well, there still seems to be a part of you that loves them a little in the way you both know can't happen.

Just make sure you're certain you want to do this.

It's gotten worse since I got stuck in one of those mistletoe traps and he insisted on springing me by saying that he wanted to protect me. And ever since it's constant clinginess. [ The physical clinging is so painful. If Macaque would ever use the phrase "Monkey's Paw" in a derogatory way, it'd be about this. ]

He wants to start over. I want to give him what he's asking for, and I can't do that right now.

Ah yes.

I am very familiar with that tradition coming in and proceeding to wreck shop on any and all emotional progress of getting over someone. [A punfilled version of Missile Toad, but goddamn, he didn't need to kiss Hunter, stupid frog.]

An important question.

Just the emotions, or memories?

Honestly? If I thought getting over him was even possible, I'd try it for longer rather than jump to something drastic. But if my own murder didn't make it stop then I can't imagine him hanging all over me is going to cause much progress.

Just the emotions. Bring it down to a friendship level. If the memories are gone then people will get all freaked out.

And I wouldn't want to forget any of our history. I wouldn't feel as strongly as I do if that wasn't important. I just need the romantic love to be gone so I can be his friend, like he wants.

Sometimes murder just doesn't have the oomph others like to assume when love is in play.

All right. We'll need to do a few different rounds then. Meditation for baseline, and focus on thoughts that are as purely romantic as possible. Then back to meditation and then more friendship feelings. Then baseline and more complicated feelings of hurt and what have you.

The more guided samples I have, the easier to isolate what I need.

Not a problem. I've lived long enough to have experience to drawn on.

Will it work right away? If it's going to take time to even out I might need to make up an excuse for being away. Like a quest.

It should work right away on removing the emotions. Evening out depends entirely on you.

There is a feeling of vertigo when feelings have been altered by an outside source. Like you know there should be a fall, except the fall is no longer there. Now when it comes how that interacts with all over emotions, that depends how well you process things.

It'd probably be better to tell people that I'm sick for a few days. It's not common among immortals, but it does happen. This way if I'm a little off for a while it won't be a thing.

I'm hoping I'll be relieved enough that the rest of it will seem minor.

Plus there is also the ways this place can mess with abilities. Historically, immortalities and immunities are messed with second, first being any means to leave on your own. There are likely some diseases that can affect you.

That is usually the hope.

Right.

I'll be by in a few days with the computer. [ Probably no great mystery that he knows your address. He did some recon before asking someone to dig in his brain. ]

I'll need to remember I have a trackable address here.

[ITS NEW and unsure how he feels about it.]

I could find you no matter how untraceable you were, if it helps.

That sounds like a challenge, which is usually when I invent new things.

Knock yourself out, at least until I bring you the computer.

New forms of mystictech security project it is.

Any timeline for when you and that computer will be ready to do this thing?

The hardware is put together and I'm just about done with the schematics for the MRI machine. I should be able to do it today or tomorrow, just need a place that can contain a machine the size of a small car.

Wonderful.

I have a line on some places. You want to meet at your place in a bit and I can take you and whatever equipment needs moved? Portals are useful for that.

They are very useful for that. Portals are a major quality of life improvement feature.

But yes, come by in about two hours and I should have the entire thing built in my head.

I'm not sure if I could teach you those, but we can try making it work with your tech and mystic abilities.

I'll see you then.

Unfortunately, I will need to pass on portals for now. Leo is quite good at them, and with how difficult and energy intensive they are on the rest of our bodies, I think it'd be best to focus my energy elsewhere. My family doesn't have a need for me to learn.

[Also Leo has some ISSUES he doesn't want to needlessly provoke. Donnie knowing medic stuff is about practicalities for Leo's sake, but the portals are usually not a life or death thing and even a bedridden Leo can make them as long as he can be conscious.]

[Donnie makes Many Decisions because it'd better for his family.]

See you then.

Checking in after 24 hours as instructed.

I feel pretty good. The dizziness passed quickly enough, and my mood is indescribably better than it was so I'm more or less attributing that brief bout of feeling hazy to adrenaline.

That's good to hear. Have you had any exposure with the subject?

I made a point to see him, yes. It was so much easier than before. No worries, no being so overly careful. Seems like your treatment worked like a charm.

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