othellovonryan | Seasons Inbox

Why, indeed. It seemed like you needed a fair amount of convincing, so I was making sure.

You're the one who needed convincing that the care you act like is a foregone conclusion is easily felt by others.

If someone doesn't like you or care about you, they're an idiot.

[He shrugs.] I'm abrasive and difficult to understand.

I haven't found you difficult to understand, even when you're not talking. Some people just don't try very hard.

Most people don't understand the neurodivergence. It does take work. It took my family a while to figure it all out.

Except Leo.

Leo is fairly accurate ninety percent of the time.

[EXCEPT WHEN HE'S BEING DUMB AND SELF LOATHING APPARENTLY.]

Most people are missing out, then. You weren't so hard to figure out, and you jumped at the chance to help me when we barely knew each other. Them not being smart enough to get you isn't your fault.

I think maybe you're just neurodivergent too.

That's usually the case when someone gets it fast.

Really? Huh. Not something I ever considered.

How do you know?

Usually there's symptoms. Often media can help. Growing up how my family did, we didn't really have a reference for what was neurotypical. Even dad who grew up human had a lot of trauma and mystic bullshit to deal with.

And the Depression.

Also mental health was atrocious most of his life.

But then I looked up stuff online about a character I identified with and then saw a lot of talk about them being written as autistic, and then a lot of other things started matching up on the list when I looked up symptoms and there was....there was a lot that I checked off.

Like you obviously suffer from over stimulation because of your hearing, which may not be a sign of any other neurodivergence, buuut the tricks to help with overstimulation may still help you.

Also, you almost definitely have PTSD.

I'm not sure about the PTSD thing, it might just be that, torture dimensions aside, dying and then coming back isn't the most normal thing, there's bound to be some effects.

If there's tricks for dealing with my hearing being so sensitive though, I'd be stupid to not at least hear what they are.

PTSD does not have a requirement for how severe or typical the trauma is, the point is how are you reacting to it after and how does it mess you up. There's no normal about what the Kraang did, and I got several new triggers from that.

Hm, I can compile them. Most of the time just isolating and noise canceling headphones worked for me, and we figured those out before Mikey and I went on our psychology bender, so we didn't examine it too far.

I do have headphones that work pretty well, but I try to only use them sparingly. Not being able to hear what's going on can be dangerous.

Compile away. Seems like you'd be good at that.

I could make a sensor that can alerts you of things when you have them in? I've done things like that before, when senses were taken away in the Temple.

I am.

That sort of thing only works when it's a proximity thing, right? In my case I'm probably better off being able to hear. That's how Korone called for me a couple of weeks ago. For example.

It's fine, I'm used to it. I mostly use the headphones for my phone.

I can make literally any kind of sensor, I've been in charge of my family's security systems since I was ten.

As well as destress beacons.

I should also make her and Eve an escape pods...but that wouldn't have solved the kid issue, ugh...

If your sensors are more powerful than my hearing, I'll eat my boot. [ He has faith in you kiddo, but no one beats him in that area. ]

...The kid issue?

Not yet, there is still some limits to the range, but I can still get quite far.

But I need to make security alerts everyone can wear. And Korone may agree to a tracker. [This boy has some Issues, okay.]

She was protecting kids. The escape pods are made for individuals because its hard to make sure no one gets HURT if there's more than one per pod.

I'll think about it. [ No offense it's just that he has a hard time trusting machines all the way. ]

She might agree to it now, yes. [ Part of him wants to make a totally unnecessary pint about make sure you're not pressuring her into it, but it's totally unnecessary so he won't. ]

You mean here? Or before?

She's thinking about it more seriously now, yes.

[HE LEARNED THIS LESSON. They know his stance, and they know to not bring it up until they're seriously considering it.]

The escape pods were before. I used them in my world. Just once, but it was....mostly effective.

I didn't account for one scenario that I really should have.

I'd feel better if she had a tracker, even though my hearing is what it is. The soundproofing in some rooms is unusually good here. [ Depends how many windows and doors there are how clearly he can hear into it. ]

I would too, but she has medical trauma.

And it was very, very clear I cannot sneak those kind of things onto her. Especially into her.

Though she wants to hear more about the tracking program, which is good, because I don't have SHELLDON here to alert people when mine is sending distress signals.

[HE AT LEAST CHIPS HIMSELF TOO.]

I know. There's a reason I didn't say that she should, I said I'd feel better. If she can't, she can't.

If you need help, by the way, call for me and I'll hear you wherever you are. Just in case. That's how she got me there before.

I know. But! She brought it up! And she would not bring it up to me without being willing to try. She knows how I feel about them.

[He is Overprotective to the nth degree.]

Do you want a beacon too?

Me?

[ He considers that. Normally there'd be no reason he couldn't just get himself out of a bad situation, but this place does like its abnormalities. ]

If you want me to, I can.

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