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Thank you, dear brother, I'm glad you understand.

For the record, I caught the joke. I meant your skill.

Anyway, I did manage to talk to Korone and Eve to apologize and-

Oh.

I'm sorry if Korone ever yelled at you for portaling into her room.

She has informed me renovations should receive approval first.

...I thought you'd gotten it already, yeesh.

All right, well, you got it all worked out so congrats.

I did not. Its not like I get permission from you guys when I make upgrades.

[...how many of those upgrades are obvious is Debatable.]

I have been informed I should not apply that to others.

Yeah, usually.

Now you know.

Yes.

She chased me through the woods and gave me a few bonks.

Kind of reminded me of April. [Said with a sad fondness. He misses adoptive sis.]

[He also misses their adoptive sis.]

Yeah, she does remind me of April some.

[Sighs. He can't avoid this forever. He digs for his phone, flipping through a screenshot he took and hands it to Donnie.

It's a screenshot of a list of items.

3 vials of blood
2 Fingers
1 Toe

But he isn't looking at Donnie.]

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[He takes his phone, expecting some weird picture or something.]

[And instead its a list and he frowns at it.]

[It takes a moment.]

....the game.

A lot of the other lists were worse.

[He fidgets with the phone. Looking at the list, twisting the phone away, looking at it again.]

[It really doesn't seem like a lot, overall. Especially if it could be worse. Heck, even if healing was turned off, these are parts people could function perfectly well without.]

[But Leo isn't him.]

[Leo who was their medic and chose healing power and barring certain worms, was usually so careful with his blades.]

[It takes a minute, parsing out how to approach.] Did you finish your list?

[Gojo had a head under one arm. And Aloy did that to Hunter. There were so much worse things.]

...Yeah.

Willing volunteers or did you have to take them?

[One hand will let go of the phone and reach for one of Leo's.]

...We certainly didn't win for most brutal acquisition.

A lot of teams were doing trades just to get enough for their antidotes.

[Taking his hand and squeezing it.]

That does tend to happen, when there's an option.

But what about you? This-

[Hesitation, what is it, how to word it. Leo avoided this, then admitted it. That means-]

This is bothering you.

...All the other teams had eight and nine people participating.

Snail had four. And one of 'em was Nanako and he was too sick to move. Mochi kept - being weird about not taking anything from a bunch of people, so it was me and Gojo getting most of it. I had to do something.

[....ah.]

[Another hand squeeze.] That is a lot of pressure to be under.

...did you do something you regret?

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[He lets his brother squeeze that hand. Then carefully rolls onto his side curling into himself a little.]

I don't know. I don't regret trying. But... everything else, I dunno.

[Oh boy]

[Ooooh booooy]

There is that moment of panic because even he isn't sure if this is just a thing where Leo needs comfort, or if this is an actual crisis.]

[He wishes Mikey were here.]

[But Leo told him. He's opening up to him, even as he turns away, and he can't fault him, sometimes its easier to talk when you're not looking at the person.]

[He squeezes Leo's hand and reminds himself he had sworn to try for these things. Be a good brother, be a better brother.]

Perhaps....going over everything else and how you felt at the time will help?

[Leo sort of huffs a sigh through his nostrils. Donnie's just trying to help. He's trying so hard to be there and listen and Leo already had his breakdown about this, the night Hunter disappeared for a day. There's no point to it now.]

Not really. It's over and done with, I talked to her afterward and we're gucci. We didn't win. [He shrugs the shoulder not pressed into the mattress.] Just... Kept thinking afterward that's the kinda stuff Draxum originally made us for.

Ugh. Its always the worst when you don't win. [He's gone hard for bad games and to have it mean nothing is just...]

[Well, he has Hot Soup carved on his arm to remember that.]

...for violence, yes.

Does it worry you?

I dunno. I don't think it worries me, but I dunno what it does.

[He's quiet another minute just... Thinking that over.]

But yeah, that's what you missed. Bad game, party, voting game, Hunter growing up a year.

Hm. [He nods, just looking at Leo's hand for several long moments.]

We are more than what we were made to be.

Maybe you already came to that conclusion, but...

Just because we were made for violence doesn't mean that's what we have to be.

...Hm.

Yeah. Rise up instead and be heroes.

[There is a pause.]

[A very long pause.]

[There is a small huff, something sad and heavy in it.]

....it feels ludicrous to say it, doesn't it?

To claim we're heroes while we're here, when sometimes the only choice is to do something horrible. To act as unherolike as possible, because its the only way to protect those we prioritize more than other people. Not people we hate or think are bad, just...

Ones we don't care about personally.

["Don't care about personally". Donnie???

Leo shifts to turn his head to look at him, brow-arch drawn together confused.]

Do you not care about Robin's Egg?

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