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Noise

It starts as just irritation. A metaphorical crawling under your skin. Things are too noisy, too bright, there is too much happening all the time and you can't take it all in-

Then silence it, make it yours, make it you, take control and destroy what will not submit

It sounds so inviting, a freedom from the noise, but its wrong, its wrong, its wrong and the noise is getting louder, mechanical and foreboding as it sees you, it knows you are there, and it wants to make you apart of it.

Anatawa hitorijanai

For a moment, there is quiet.

You breathe.

And fall through water.

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Oh.

[April is great, everyone should meet April, huh?]

You two must be close.

April is my best friend.

I'm glad for you two. It's seems nice to have a friend.

[He looks up at that.]

...you don't have friends?

[Dr. Feelings would have something to say about her having dreams about trying to hug a person, and that person disappearing BUT SHE HASN'T CONNECTED WITH DR. FEELINGS, SO HA.]

I move around a lot.

Let's stay focused.

[Dr. Feelings is observing you RIGHT NOW.]

Still....

That's so sad! [Or rather, Heart Construct Mikey is observing her and GIVING HER A TEARFUL HUG RIGHT NOW.]

[Just sort of freezing in the hug.]

-Uh.

It's fine. I have some allies now.

Allies aren't FRIENDS. Everyone deserves friends. [Sniffles and gives her the widest puppy dog eyes.]

[Donbot is actually just watching this Very Thoughtfully.]

[Oh no, this is a cute brother. He can have one (1) pat on the shell. She's not trying to extricate herself, she's not averse to the contact.]

We've talked, and laughed. Played Machine Strike. Just, we also have to get ready to keep a malevolent collection of AI consciousnesses from wiping out life. Again.

I mean, who hasn't had to do that sometimes?

That's a good sign! Now you just need to be able to let yourself call it friendship, because its important to be able to verbalize it. [Where did the glasses and sweater suddenly come from?]

Donatello gets it.

[Wait where DID the glasses and sweater come from. Curse these eyes.]

People usually seem to read me pretty well, though.

To be fair, Mikey is also there for that.

Its good for YOU to verbalize it. Donnie gets it.

Unfortunately, he does have a point.

[Squinting at Donnie. Traitor.]

Feel free to demonstrate.

[He raises an eyebrow.]

I like you and I think we should be friends.

....when I'm done trying to throw people into a bunker.

...I'm looking forward to you finishing trying to throw people into a bunker.

I think you're clever, and would enjoy a friend who knows his way around machines.

I am too, I'm really not a fan of it when I'm not a self destructive rampage.

I am quite clever and you have fascinating ideas, and its always nice to meet a fellow scavenger with taste.

[GLANCING AT MIKEY FOR APPROVAL]

[Mikey is giving thumbs up and a wide smile.] An excellent first step. Also if you ever want hugs, just ask Raph, he gives some of the best hugs.

I have sensory issues, so its variable.

I'll, uh, keep that in mind.

[Raph is big. But he seems a little pointy for hugs?]

You always seemed alert to me.

I know he looks pointy, but Raph is an expert at not poking people.

Raph does indeed give hugs like a pro. Even for humans.

And of course I'm alert. Observation is one of my best skills.

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I just have to verbalize what I want from him, is that it?

He knows to respect personal space. Like he checks in with me a lot because he can't always tell by a glance if its a good or bad day.

We could all use a skill like that.

[She clears her throat.]

Anyway, how are those files loading?

They're loaded, I was just distracted.

Raph or dad first?

Me too. Let’s start with Raphael.

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