Donatello "the air bud of war crimes" Hamato (
othellovonryan) wrote2023-02-11 05:10 pm
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Noise
It starts as just irritation. A metaphorical crawling under your skin. Things are too noisy, too bright, there is too much happening all the time and you can't take it all in-
It sounds so inviting, a freedom from the noise, but its wrong, its wrong, its wrong and the noise is getting louder, mechanical and foreboding as it sees you, it knows you are there, and it wants to make you apart of it.
For a moment, there is quiet.
You breathe.
And fall through water.
It starts as just irritation. A metaphorical crawling under your skin. Things are too noisy, too bright, there is too much happening all the time and you can't take it all in-
Then silence it, make it yours, make it you, take control and destroy what will not submit
It sounds so inviting, a freedom from the noise, but its wrong, its wrong, its wrong and the noise is getting louder, mechanical and foreboding as it sees you, it knows you are there, and it wants to make you apart of it.
Anatawa hitorijanai
For a moment, there is quiet.
You breathe.
And fall through water.

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[She’ll have to hunt and peck at keys, but it’s a very decisive press when she finds the backspace key.]
Easy.
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And typing is a wonder for efficient info managing.
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You know, it doesn’t seem like he’s that pressured when I talk to him.
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That sort of thing has to normalize eventually or he would just implode. [Mikey throwing that in.]
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Am I Raphael, to Beta?
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[So, can't really one-to-one on that metric.]
She recorded a note for me. In case.
[She takes a moment, recollecting.]
"You've been my shelter. And I would risk it all again to be by your side. I know you'll find a way forward. That's what you do."
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You might get there. The shelter feel is very important, but you should probably try to avoid the parentification stress.
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...I'm glad you don't seem to be in an apocalypse timeline.
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We averted that. Thanks to time travel.
And the trauma.
[He points to the remains of Kraang tentacles in the far corners.]
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So that's where they came from...
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Some other stuff...
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I suppose...time for your father.
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Age: He says 38, but he's really [His actual age here which is like around 60 at least or something since Donnie would have access to this information, but I'm not doing that math right now]
Height: 92cm/3 foot
Favorite Color: I think it might actually be yellow? Or orange? Grey is good for association in group gifts.
Always a good gift: DVDs for his shows. More traditional things from Japan, he does have some sentiment for home. Anything with sentiment usually gets to him. Anything that lets him be lazy.
[*Much like Raph, there is a whole bunch of OTHER PERSONAL INFORMATION I AIN'T HEADCANNONING. Likes, dislikes, favorite shows, medical information, other random observations that sound more like scientific observation then a family member because that's how Donnie do.*]
Safety Notes: Refer to Rat Flu Emergency Plan Alpha for the most up to date version, but keep Epsilon and Gamma for being the most effective so far. Whenever his robe is replaced, burn the old one.
Hidden City Notes: Lou Jitsu is recognized in the Hidden City and was allowed to roam while he was a champion. Perhaps investigate more of that time to understand the breadth of what father went through. Always be careful of Big Mama potentially trying something when dad is there, but at least the police aren't after him.
Ninpo: Dad has not shown any individual mystic powers. He was able to access the ninpo, but unknown if he was able to when he was younger. Its likely he wasn't, considering how he never brought it up before hand. If he had any training, he probably could not retain much information about it. Though there was perhaps some passive usage considering his physical strength and ability as a fighter even when he was human. Not that Hamato training is to be underestimated, but considering his lack of regard for his duty, it is curious how much ability he was able to achieve.
No Bonding Time Record: 278 Days.
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Dad was an enigma for the longest time. A shady past he hid away. We knew we were mutants, of course, but he never wanted to explain how we came to be. He made sure we knew how to keep safe, to not reveal ourselves needlessly to the world, that we were different even if he made sure to never give us lesser than or monster issues. It was clear that dad never wanted to talk about the before times. The closest he ever came to was things about the Hamato, a generalized history, but he was often distracted from specifics. Perhaps we should have suspected his human origins that he had a last name and family history, but we were kids.
Oddly, it was his Depression that was easier to understand. At least I'm pretty sure that is what it is. Not that we had a name for it growing up, but it was much like me. Sometimes the world was too much for dad and he just needed time where he didn't have the ability to interact or acknowledge it, much like I did. He gave clear signs of this and we knew to give him the space, as painful as it had been when we were young. But its also clear he fought to keep it to a minimum when we were young, before we figured out my ability with technology. He definitely got worse as we were older. I'm not sure if this is because it did get worse, if he was just being worn out from years, or simply because he knew Raph and I could be relied on for the homestead.
After a certain point it became clear Raph was the more reliable caretaker. It hurt to realize that, and it felt almost like dad got tired of us. It felt like a while that maybe he didn't care for us much at all anymore. Or at least that he didn't care about me. There came long stretches of time where dad and I didn't have any personal conversations or him acknowledging me outside the group that didn't involve the television or an argument.
It hurt.
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