Donatello "the air bud of war crimes" Hamato ([personal profile] othellovonryan) wrote2023-02-13 04:09 pm

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Noise.

It starts as just irritation. A metaphorical crawling under your skin. Things are too noisy, too bright, there is too much happening all the time and you can't take it all in-

Then silence it, make it yours, make it you, take control and destroy what will not submit


It sounds so inviting, a freedom from the noise, but its wrong, its wrong, its wrong and the noise is getting louder, mechanical and foreboding as it sees you, it knows you are there, and it wants to make you apart of it.

Anatawa hitorijanai

For a moment, there is quiet.

You breathe.

And fall through water.
supersmashbro: (??)

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[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-14 02:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ??

Well now he has to touch all the pillars. ]
supersmashbro: (abt to carry family emotionally)

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[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-14 05:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Good pillars. Nice solid pillars, he would say. All things considered.

And then the Ninpo happens. Which takes precedence. Brings some relief, just for being here. He's been seeing plenty of Donnie. Not feeling as much. He tries to send a little reassurance back its way on principle.

The answer to this weighted question depends on uhhhh

If Raph knows Catherine is someone also here trying to help Donnie right now, or if he has heard anything about Catherine before from Donnie. bc otherwise he probably has no idea who that even is so it would be a coin flip. ]
supersmashbro: (core memory)

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[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-14 09:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[ In that case yes absolutely slamming the metaphorical trust button. ]
supersmashbro: (hah? ah??)

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[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-15 02:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ Hmmm.

Ominous.

But if he has to deal with that later somehow, then he will. Right now it's mainline quest to find Selfishness.

After he checks out that armoire because it has Mikey colors and he misses his little guy. ]
supersmashbro: (ohhhhh her ninpo thing)

1/2

[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-15 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Step one: stop for a second to feel a LOT OF WAYS ABOUT ALL OF THIS, from the Mikey based vibes to the wondering how selfishness ties into all this moral compass stuff to, you know.

A fresh POV on his trust fall: x-treme edition.

It's weird to experience. Not for the feelings themselves, because he knows those like the back of his hand. The worry, the wanting to help and not knowing how, the panic, what it is to throw himself without a landing strategy because the most important thing is to be there and then figure it out--

It's weird because when he thinks back on that moment specifically, from his side, it's all highlight. Like "contender for the defining high point of his life to date despite all that led up to it" highlight. Certainty, love, pride, trust all the way down to the roots, finally understanding that they'd catch him. If he needed it, if he asked for it, someone would be there to catch him. It wouldn't be too much.

(He'd kinda forgotten what that certainty felt like. He doesn't remember how long ago.)

So gonna do processing of his own. Gonna take a second to be in his feelings because this is A Lot. ]
supersmashbro: (i cant punch this)

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[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-15 04:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Only for a second, though.

Things are clearly happening. Mystic powers are back on the table, big fan of that.

Someone else is here, and it's someone Donnie cares about, and Raph will bet on that trust enough to assume she's got the same end goal he does. Therefore they are a Team now. (sorry Catherine no team opt-out in the Raph playbook)

So he's gotta keep working from his end.

There doesn't seem to be a Donnie Aspect in this room. He guesses if he was in here, there'd be less problems with the other guy? Or that would be a step to getting there.

Politely closes the armoire again and heads out the door. Maybe he will poke at the other morality-assigned bits and bobs some other time. ]
supersmashbro: (whys our family history so crummy)

Re: Personal Room

[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-15 05:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The plot thickens. The map gets more convoluted.

Familiar don't hurt, so Raph will head on down that path. ]
supersmashbro: (what is??)

Re: Personal Room

[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-15 06:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Oh.

Man.

It's been a while, huh.

Well, maybe if part of Donnie is doing a little brain hideout--

He thumps a mystic fist on the ground twice. A little Raph Is Here without, uh. Yelling.

Better if he rules out the most straightforward option first, after all. ]
supersmashbro: (wait i know that noise)

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[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-16 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
[ That tracks. Worth a shot, though.

In that case, he's gonna keep heading down this tunnel on his Donnie hunt. ]
supersmashbro: (long drawn out sigh)

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[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-16 03:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There are no upsides to the fact that Donnie was out there in the real world very much manifesting entire Kraang tentacle things. Objectively. Having seen that is gonna live with Raph for a long time.

But in a roundabout way, it at least makes this straight-out-of-nightmares moment not paralyzing. He doesn't have to fight back the reflexive Nope quite so hard.

He'd fight it anyway, of course. He'd do anything for his brothers. But it's good not to waste valuable time with his own issues right now.

Gonna pull up some mystic gauntlets for the double effect of extra light and self-defense. It would probably take forever to simply rip all the tentacles out of his brother's heart himself? He feels like it would take a long time considering he's trying to do team stuff.

(Later. Later, Raph, come back later and take as long as it takes, you're not gonna leave him like this.)

Very very carefully proceeding. Keeping an eye out for. He's not really sure what. Donnie hints. Non-Kraang stuff. ]
supersmashbro: (april???)

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[personal profile] supersmashbro 2023-02-16 04:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[ !

THAT'S NOT ALIENS THEREFORE GOTTA TRY TO GET THAT OUTTA THERE STAT

(with a boa-bestowed 17) ]

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