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Am I safe to climb up or should I let you finish?

Safe to climb! C'mon up.

[ She's at the "arranging and rearranging blankets for maximum coziness" stage ]

[Up the ladder he comes, perfectly balancing this tray of muffins and thermos.]

Touch or no touch?

Touch is —

[ … hm ]

[ ??? ]

Fine? Mm, I think it's fine. [ she's jittery and nervous, unsure how this is going to go, worried that maybe she shouldn't be burdening him with this after all -

... but today has been a Good Day. Nerves aside, her stress levels are pretty low ]

I'll tap out if I need to, and you can too.

[ she'll come help him with the tray, setting it down on a cute beanbag "coffee table" she's got set up in the fort. ]

I should be fine. I went looking at schools. [He got to the LOOKING stage which is better than the arrested mental screaming of even pondering the idea. So. Better.]

Do you want squish, or lean against me for easy pull away? [Setting down the tray.]

Ooh! I wanna hear all about it. [ HER BOY IS GONNA GET TO GO TO A SCHOOL ]

[ eventually. when he's ready. she understands it's a whole complicated Thing for him, given his history. ]

Mmmnnn ... [ Serious consideration ... ... ... ] Lap? I wanna be held, but a position that's easy to move from would be good.

[HE IS GONNA GO TO SCHOOL AND HE IS FULL OF MANY FEELINGS.]

[But they are getting there.] Of course. After. [Her feelings.]

Lap works. [Makes sure everything is set down. Then will take off the battleshell to set to the side before finding a place to settle comfortably. Motioning for her to come over when he's set.]

[ a tiny li'l wingpuff ]

After. [ she's Excited for him, ok ]

[ Once he's down and comfy, she beelines straight for the Lap with a very, very quiet chirpy coo. Safe, safe, safe. ]

Hmm. Officially Choco Korone's number one top favorite place in the multiverse.

[He trills softly, kissing the top of her head.]

[Then chirps in embarrassment.]

Menace. [Affectionate and is going to kiss her shoulders in revenge!!!]

[ CHIRP CHIRP ]

I speak only the truth. [ She shuffles just enough to press a kiss to his cheek. Another chirp, deeply familiar by now - mate/safe/home. and then another: love. ]

[ Her feelings for Donnie in a nutshell ]

It's so much easier to be brave when I'm with you. [ by his side, in his arms, back to back or five feet away. whatever, wherever. and she's going to need that bravery for all this. ] And it's harder to forget I'm with you when we're like this, y'know? My math's flawless.

[Oh no. He was not ready for this dere. He was ready for serious talk of sadness, NOT THIS ASSAULT OF DERE.]

[His hold tightens on her, pulling her closer as he chirps back. Love. Skymate. Safe safe safe.]

The math is fairly solid for emotions.

"Fairly" my butt. It's flawless.

[ Ffffuck. She loves him. ]

[ That's far from a revelation at this point. Of course she loves him. Water is wet, Earth is spherical. Still -

She hugs him as best she can from this position, even if that just means curling her arms over his. Snuggles in close, breathing deep. ]

I really, really love you. Really really really. Yours for life. [ With the mark to prove it: a scar nestled against the crook of her neck, carefully tended and fully healed, given to her with love. ] ... No matter how stupidly melodramatic my life is.

[He squawks.] Three really's! [He just curls up about around her, trilling and chirping against her shoulder.]

That-Choco-

[More chirps because he was not prepared at all.]

[Lovelovelovelove]

[Because the chirps are easier when she's gonna do this.]

[ THREE REALLYS ]

[ or five if you count the two preliminary reallys. preliminareallys. ]

[ a quiet coo-y purr kicks up as he curls around her, pitched solidly toward "love/affection/comfort" rather than spice ]

Just. Wanted to say it. [ Make sure he k n o w s beyond any shadow of a doubt. SHE'LL GIVE HIM A MOMENT, THOUGH. ... and herself a moment, too, just quietly chirping back to him. ]

I don't know if I should be feeling happy and loved, or nervous that you felt the need to assure me this much.

[JUST!]

[He knows this will be a hard talk, is he being buttered up?]

[ HUGS HIM TIGHTER ]

[ squish ]

Um, well, if it helps - [ she doesn't know if this'll help?? maybe it'll help ]

... It's the fact that I feel safe enough with you that I can even ... try to do this. That's how you make me feel. Like I want to try and try and try, no matter what, no matter how hard it might get.

[ she reaches for one of his hands, pulling it up, pressing his palm over her heart. it's beating hard. ]

Waymarks and anchorpoints. Counterbalances.

That's why I wanted to say it. I'm ... I'm nervous, I'm really nervous, but - ugh, if this talk wasn't this talk I'd go grab the emotionshare potion right now - it's ... it's a giddy kind of feeling? Doki doki.

So you're...nervous, but also happy? Because you're having this talk? Because you...feel safe even though the talk may be unpleasant?

[Its]

[Its a lot, if he's honest. He's trying to follow the pathway she's laying out, but it certainly sounds like one of those convoluted, difficult paths of emotions.]

[He presses his hand over her heart. His other hand reaches for one of hers.]

...how long have you been wanting this kind of conversation with anyone?

Y-Yeah. That ... sounds right? I know it's a lot, and it's weird, and - it's ... it's a lot.

[ She laughs softly, and, oh, oh fuck goddamn she's already getting emotional. Keep it together, Korone. She takes his hand when he reaches for her, lacing their fingers together. ]

... Years. I think. I think ... she probably talked about some of it with Kaito?

But that would have been her, not me. If it happened.

And you can't remember, so it really doesn't count.

[He squeezes her hand.]

...I'm not sure I understand the logic of what's going on, but its important to you, so I'm glad I can provide?

[ so it really doesn't count. she squeezes back, tight, a stutter in her breathing. ]

S'okay. I - I don't know how to explain it at all, so - just ...

I can't tell you how grateful I am that you're -

[ GESTURES ]

[ WITH HER FREE HAND ]

You.

Here. With me. And you're ... you want to support me, even when it's. You know. This. [ Stupid and convoluted and complicated and full of FEELINGS. ] ... Makes me feel less alone with it all. Less like I might drown. There's been a few times where I thought I might.

[Listen, if you can't remember the therapy, it Doesn't Count.]

Of course I want to support you. Especially when things are confusing. It seems when things are confusing is when you most need support. A-at least I do. Even when its being given space, but knowing they're there.

So I do understand that part, at least.

[ Oh, but there's so much MORE that went down the proverbial drain. ]

S'honestly incredible, how much of a difference it makes. Not being alone. Just - like you said. Knowing someone is there.

[ a wry huff ]

... [ a tighter squeeze of his hand, and she curls a bit. ]

Knowing ... trusting you'll stay.

You'd still see me.

[He nods against her shoulder.] Yes. Even if they may not understand, they stay anyway. [And he knows how hard he can be to understand.]

I'll still stay. [A reassurance, the baaaaarest brush of lips against her mark.]

I'll always want to see you.

It's acceptance. [ Meeting halfway as best they can. ] Finding all the ways you can fit together.

[ A gentle shiver runs through her when she feels that whisper of a kiss. She leans into it, into him, tilting her head just a little.

Just enough to make space for him, if he wants to linger. ]

[ She's quiet a moment. Then, softly, ]

My dad didn't.

[Well, with the invitation?]

[He does. Doesn't press harder, just a gentle press of his lips.]

....

[Oh, he doesn't like that.]

He didn't want to accept you?

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