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[ ... Donnie gets it all too well. She nudges her forehead against his shoulder with a sigh. ]

He didn't recognise me when I had a pretty dress and makeup on. I should've known he wouldn't when I look like ... when I'm -

When I've changed this much. [ Physically, mentally. The whole nine yards. ] But I went and got my hopes up anyways. [ Like an idiot, she doesn't say outloud, knowing that Donnie would call her out fot it. Bwuh. ]

[ She presses her forehead in harder. ]

Mnn. No. Kinda? But - no, it was more like - I've been trying to figure out how to explain this for months and I still can't. [ UGH. ] ... That was the right universe, and it was the right time. I know it was, with the same certainty I know - [ a quiet chirp of his name. ]

....maybe he has face blindness. [It would certainly explain it because REALLY.]

Its family. [He hugs her tighter.] You should be able to get your hopes up with family and for it to usually work out well enough.

... [He pulls her closer, trills a soft, comforting sound.]

Were there two yous present?

He doesn't. [ SHE WOULD KNOW.

He's just.

Not ... the most attentive, except for those few times where he is. Ugh. A tilt of the head lets her rest her ear against him, taking in the soft trill ]

Mm. She kicked dad out. I - think I was having a panic attack. Then I was here.

Maybe it was-

Ah.

This is why you freaked out when I spoke with Wylan about Wash probably being the cause.

[ Hahhhhhhh. ]

I was spooked 'bout a lot of things.

That. Knowing how Wash-nii would feel about Wylan-kun disappearing on his watch at all. The things Wylan-kun said. How badly hurt he was.

[ she sighs ]

I really don't think it was the magic. At least for me. But I can't exactly prove it unless we can science a way to scan and analyse a memory.

I mean....

I don't know how accurate Draxum's memory spell is, if its based on perception or if we could science it accurately...

Isn't that the one where you can get attacked by the person whose memories you're looking at-?

Yes. Depending on how defensive the subconscious is.

Ah. Well, mine is very, generally, but when it comes to this in particular, mostly I just want to cry.

[ mrrrrrRRRRR. ]

But I really need to understand what happened...

...I could probably figure it out if I had you both in front of me, but...

I could see if scans come up with something. I did get scans of both Leo's. [That they may or may not have been aware of.]

Mm? Me and - [ goddamnit, she still can't even bring herself to say it ] Other me?

... I'm -

[ Sigh! ]

I'm game to try it if you are.

For the spell or the scans?

Both. Either.

All right. We'll do the scan first, see if it tells me something.

Then I'll need to find someone to help with the spell. We'll need someone to be a guide on the outside.

Mmm ...

Maybe Macaque-san? [ Or Red Son, she would say, but then Donnie would start hissing and now is Not The Time. ]

He would probably be able to help. Especially since he should be fairly good at any sort of...sensing magic, I would imagine.

[His whole shtick is shadows and hearing things, gotta help with sensing magic stuff.]

Uh huh. And ...

And, well, if they could use this to look into the pendant stuff at the same time ... two birds, one stone? Or something like that.

I am a fan of just using one stone.

I could record things. I got the magic crystal for more accurate readings too.

The less metaphorical stones anywhere near my soul and memories, the better. Yeah.

[ She presses her nose into the crook of his neck, nuzzling, gentle and brief. Maybe a little scenting, too, to ground her just that bit more. ]

... It's -

Scary.

All of this.

[ ... ]

But I feel safer knowing that you'll help.

I know. [He squeezes her, nuzzling the top of her head.] That its scary. But I'll be here. I'll do what I can.

What else did you want to say about it?

[ The softest of chirps, love, mate, home. ]

[ safe ]

S'mostly just ... that. The hurt.

Feeling like I didn't have my home anymore. It's - not even my home, not really. It's hers. And my memories are ...

I'm missing so much more than I thought, Dokkun. Not so much from her time there, except our mom. Still ... it was disconcerting. Is disconcerting.

[He nods.] It...seems like it would be.

[He's never had that feeling, but Leo certainly dumped those emotions on him for a while.]

...you do know you have a home, even if its...not there?

[ She's quick to nod. ]

I know. I know. [ She lifts a hand, tracing the edge of his mark on her skin. ] You're home. Wash-nii is home. Eve-chan is home.

All I'd have to do is reach out. If Ellipsa hadn't grabbed me -

[ She was legitimately just about to call him. ]

[He trills softly, nuzzling her.]

Good. You're always welcome home. I can even get you a whole identity, no problem.

And can probably get it arranged in Wash's world too. I don't think that is a problem in Eve's...

Ah, you don't have to worry about it for Wash-nii. He's got that taken care of already. [ She spends enough time there that Arrangements Are In Place.

A pause.

She lifts her head, pressing the softest of kisses to his cheek, close to the corner of his lips. Then she snuggles herself back in. ]

... Guess that'd mean you'd get to meet her, too. Almost. My other self seems a lot closer than I am.

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