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othellovonryan) wrote2031-09-09 11:46 pm
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Username: Bootyyyshaker9000
Username: Bootyyyshaker9000
Username: Bootyyyshaker9000
Username: Bootyyyshaker9000
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Nemurune: Instincts was
Nemurune: spicy
Nemurune: i think it was your scent and uh
Nemurune: i might have bared my throat and chirped at him
Nemurune: went from threat displays to flirting VERY quickly
Nemurune is typing ...
Nemurune is typing ...
Nemurune is typing ...
Nemurune is typing ...
Nemurune: oh
Nemurune: wow
Nemurune: now that you've put it like that it feels so obvious
Nemurune: (ㆆ_ㆆ)
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Submission is prey or mate when it's not family.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Instincts doesn't have a lot of wants out of life.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I have been on the internet A Lot. Also consent play is very popular in furry circles.
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[ the alternative would have been ... awkward.
and a very, very bad time ]
Nemurune: & im once again learning so much about so many things
Nemurune: having so many thoughts about the things
Nemurune: like
Nemurune: the whole
Nemurune: supervillain fantasy situation
Nemurune: that i accidentally sprung on you at 4am (sorry about that, i blame the painkillers)
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Bootyyyshaker9000: The internet is a wealth of information.
Bootyyyshaker9000: And porn. So much porn.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I was awake, it's no probbles.
Bootyyyshaker9000: So did you want to do it in reality?
Bootyyyshaker9000: There is a difference between just fantasizing about it and acting it out.
Bootyyyshaker9000: So do you just like thinking about it or do you actually want to experiment with consent play?
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Nemurune: what kind of fantasies
[ there is ]
[ A DELAY ]
[ while she rereads the rest of those messages several times over, and tries to get the buzzy buzzy buzzy feelings out without exacerbating her injuries ]
Nemurune: back in a minute im going to very quietly scream into a pillow
[ one prolonged aaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA later ]
Nemurune: ok back
Nemurune: i think i'm interested in trying
Nemurune: it's
Nemurune in typing ...
Nemurune: i like the idea of being able to explore
Nemurune: the trill of feeling like im in danger, or i could be. the challenge. being pushed, pushing back
Nemurune: with the safety net of knowing that one word from either of us
Nemurune: would stop it immediately, and that any boundaries we set ahead of time would be respected no matter what
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Bootyyyshaker9000: All right.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Do you just want to do forcefulness or a villain hero roleplay?
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SHE ASKED, DIDN'T SHE ]
[ between her own godawful prior experience and what she remembers of snekmanji ...
ugh. ick. bad. bad. badbadbadbadbadbad. ]
Nemurune: super gross
Nemurune: (・_・”)／＼(・_・”) a "no thanks!" hi5
Nemurune: that's a good question
Nemurune: i've never tried roleplay
Nemurune: in this context, that is - drama & acting were fun to dabble in at school
Nemurune: i've had other fantasies without the roleplay element
Nemurune: there was this one dream that stuck with me. with a chase. a hunt. fighting to get away. really making you WORK for it
Nemurune: not long before your heart, actually
Nemurune: it wouldn't have to be that, we've got plenty of options we could explore, but uh
Nemurune: considering the way i woke up from that one
Nemurune: it's
Nemurune: something i'd be interested in. if you are, too.
Nemurune: and i would be willing to try a roleplay if you're into the idea
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Bootyyyshaker9000: I could see myself enjoying roleplay. The dramatics, the flare, the costumes.
Bootyyyshaker9000: It sounds like a great time.
Bootyyyshaker9000: As for a chase
Bootyyyshaker9000: I do enjoy a game of tag.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Certainly had a thought of chasing down the cute but mean crushes.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Even if those were fictional characters.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But that was more heroics or crime over feral, but that could be fun.
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Nemurune: i didn't expect to like the biting as much as i do, let alone biting until blood's drawn
Nemurune: giving or receiving
Nemurune: but they both feel incredible
Nemurune: scratching would probably be okay too, for me
Nemurune: you've got those theater kid vibes, dokkun
Nemurune: whether you're playing villain or mad scientist or both, or something else - i'm not sure i'd make a good villain but heck, i'd be willing to try that too if you wanted
Nemurune: we could lean into heroics/crime for a chase?
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Though you say that and I'm tempted to actually let mine grow out some.
Bootyyyshaker9000: The biting I wasn't surprised by, just how hard it hits.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Nothing wrong with being a theater kid, Chocochu.
Bootyyyshaker9000: We could. We could also do feral. I could just be very chirpy the whole time.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Sometimes it is fun to let loose, its just not the way I usually think about.
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Nemurune: you should! nails grow fast, right? and they're easy to get rid of if you don't like them
Nemurune: i'd
Nemurune: love to see how they'd feel between my wings sometime
Nemurune: 👀
Nemurune: they're FUN vibes
Nemurune: (i have to confess: part of the fun of the heroes vs villains fantasy has been thinking up all the ways you'd have fun with it.)
Nemurune: (the THEATRICS, dokkun)
Nemurune: (the PRESENTATION)
Nemurune: we have so many options here how are we supposed to choose
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Bootyyyshaker9000: But they're also harder when they're shorter and more prone to becoming points.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But of course. If I am going to ACT, then I have to go all in.
Bootyyyshaker9000: About the only time I can lie is when I'm playing a part.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Donatello Hamato is honest to an almost fault.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But Othello Von Ryan or Armbruster or Alien Turtle Number 3?
Bootyyyshaker9000: Why, what is honest for them is who they are as a character!
Bootyyyshaker9000: There is always good scheduling.
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Nemurune: human nails can be a real pain sometimes
Nemurune: but part of that is because they break so easily
Nemurune: your honesty is one of the things that i love about you
Nemurune: but THIS is extremely charming
Nemurune: that's true ...
Nemurune: what are you most intrigued by?
Nemurune: out of the things we've talked about so far
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Bootyyyshaker9000: But I do also have robot arms that can do a lot of work.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Sort of depends on what I'm doing.
Bootyyyshaker9000: If they were in the way enough, I would just grind them back down.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I am usually fine with my honesty, its just very inconvenient because when I want to lie, its usually for an extremely good reason.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Most of the time I just have to get away not saying anything about a subject at all.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Or find the bit part to be.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I mean
Bootyyyshaker9000: I do honestly miss playing mad scientist.
Bootyyyshaker9000: There's just no space to do it around here.
Bootyyyshaker9000: And just pretending to be a mad scientist in the middle of the woods without DOING something is just kind of lackluster. A mad scientist needs a GOAL.
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Nemurune: hmm that's fair
Nemurune: i strongly dislike lies as a general rule but sometimes
Nemurune: sometimes ...
Nemurune: ￣へ￣
Nemurune: you ARE a vault though
Nemurune: i volunteer as test subject/experiment/whatever your mad scientist heart desires (✿◡‿◡)
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Sometimes.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Especially when people ask why you're green or have three fingers.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Best to just immediately change the subject.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Now you're just talking dirty to me.
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Nemurune: back home? or has that happened here as well?
Nemurune: if i was talking dirty i'd tell you to put your logo on me while you're at it
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Bootyyyshaker9000: So long I could not make any weapon truly destructive because I had to get the resources for it back home.
Bootyyyshaker9000: My ninpo has freed me from any such concerns!
Bootyyyshaker9000: Now it is all concern for people and the environment.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I mean it did my first day here until I realized I was not on Earth anymore.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Now its more a problem people assume wildly different things about my experiences because they have turtle or reptile people on their world so they think my upbringing was normal and it simply wasn't.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I'm pretty sure Tryse still hasn't wrapped her head around the fact Raph and my experiences are nothing like turtleman's.
Bootyyyshaker9000: At least for how much she coddles Aloy compared to how much she thinks we should know.
Bootyyyshaker9000: You are still injured.
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Nemurune: this time to laugh
Nemurune: thank you for your self-control, beloved
Nemurune: fun trivia: my brother and his friends once solved a problem by crashing an entire spaceship into it
Nemurune: do people not just
Nemurune: ASK about your experiences?
Nemurune: i know it's EASY to fall back on assumptions based on prior knowledge and experience, and it's not like i don't goof up sometimes myself even with the benefit of having met dozens and dozens of people from vastly different worlds
Nemurune: but still.
Nemurune: tragically, yes
Nemurune: that really got you, didn't it?
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Bootyyyshaker9000: I would LOVE to crash a spaceship into something if I wouldn't cry about losing the spaceship.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I can't tell you how fun smashing someone with a giant DRILL was.
Bootyyyshaker9000: People do not, no.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Which is funny because it literally says I'm a mutant on my profile.
Bootyyyshaker9000: People either just go 'turtle' or don't even think about it.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Its come up a few times people have assumed things about me without any basis on knowing me or my experiences.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Assign me being judgemental on things I'm not.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Assume I have experiences I don't.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Even the other day I had to explain that my whole shut down feelings thing is not maladaptive coping mechanism, its just how my brain works to try and process things because I need time.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Admittedly that isn't a life experience thing, that is just some version of mental disorders except in mutant turtle brain.
Bootyyyshaker9000: what do you say to supervillain marking their plucky hero partner in some sort of nemesis obsession
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Nemurune: i'm absolutely going to take you to wash-nii's world btw
Nemurune: ( ˘ ³˘)♥
Nemurune: that sounds frustrating
Nemurune: to say the least
Nemurune: especially if it keeps happening
Nemurune: maybe i'm biased, but you're really not that difficult to talk to & get to know
Nemurune: enthusiatic consent granted
Nemurune: you have full creative freedom re: how and placement, with the only caveat being that it's not permanent
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Would he be okay with that?
Bootyyyshaker9000: It is very frustrating. I'm so used to everyone I know either being familiar with it, or simply not caring because they're a mess anyway (Draxum and Cassandra are not properly social people)
Bootyyyshaker9000: So running into people who make all these assumptions or have these expectations of me is
Bootyyyshaker9000: Daunting and stressful.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Like I understand Aloy has her own social issues, I get that, and I won't get into them because privacy, but
Bootyyyshaker9000: Having these expectations for me to be emotionally aware and competent when that simply isn't my wheelhouse is daunting.
Bootyyyshaker9000: And it feels unfair a lot of the time.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I'm already trying so much to be better at emotions than I am.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Because Mikey nor April are here, and Leo and Raph are not as hyper aware of all my interpersonal interactions, so I can't just rely on them to make up for my shortcomings.
Bootyyyshaker9000: And being told to do even more than I'm already attempting to do just makes me want to cry.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Its so hard to be in the uppertier of emotional competency on a team.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Right
Bootyyyshaker9000: Yes
Bootyyyshaker9000: Not permanent, noted.
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Nemurune: to hold a staff
Nemurune: and not
Nemurune: indulge
Nemurune: in the need to SMACK
Nemurune: but yeah, i can't imagine that he wouldn't be! i've already chattered at him about some of the people i wanna introduce you to. as long as he knows where we are/that we're safe/not getting embroiled in some ridiculous space opera bullshit
Nemurune: this has been building for a while, hasn't it?
Nemurune: you've been working your butt off, emotionally speaking, for as long as i've known you
Nemurune: they need to try, too. i hope they have been. it can't all be on you to recognise, reach out, and fix things.
Nemurune: is this the kind of thing where it might help to have a
Nemurune: translator, i guess? a mediator?
Nemurune: that restriction may change in future
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Everyday is a battle of self control.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Is getting embroiled a common issue?
Bootyyyshaker9000: I don't know.
Bootyyyshaker9000: The problem is trying to get my teammates to actually open up and communicate.
Bootyyyshaker9000: The thing is trying to get them to be willing to connect.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Like sometimes I don't understand what's going on and THAT helps with translating.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But now I'm being told to actively monitor people's emotions at the time, and THAT is
Bootyyyshaker9000: I would need someone actively there to translate.
Bootyyyshaker9000: And that's not really a fair thing to expect?
Bootyyyshaker9000: Just
Bootyyyshaker9000: Relationships are about meeting people halfway.
Bootyyyshaker9000: That is a necessary thing.
Bootyyyshaker9000: ah
Bootyyyshaker9000: You are still injured.
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Nemurune: one time i went to visit wash-nii for a long weekend
Nemurune: got kidnapped by space pirates with a grudge against the reds&blues
Nemurune: it was a bad life choice on their part
Nemurune: tbf though that's 50% space opera bs just HAPPENS around them & 50% I'M a jeopardy-prone danger magnet.
Nemurune: yeah, no
Nemurune: you're pushing your limits, trying to do what you can from your side. it sounds like you've tried to communicate that to them. and really? honestly? in my experience, that's all you really can do. that, and have patience & hope.
Nemurune: my thought was more along the lines of calling in an emergency plumber, so to speak, to find and dislodge a blockage? because it sounds like there is one, on their side, and it's like you said: relationships are about meeting halfway. maybe that'd help get things moving on their side?
Nemurune: *an emergency emotional plumber who isn't biased
Nemurune: this isn't, shouldn't, and can't be all on you. you're one person. you're one 16 year old person who's already trying to carry too much, and these are your teammates. they need to step up and put in the effort as well.
Nemurune: you're welcome to come over for a kiss if that wouldn't be too much
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