Bootyyyshaker9000: How much Raph energy does he have?
Bootyyyshaker9000: Mostly in regards to who was in there. Its more noticeable with some than others. Bootyyyshaker9000: Some of it makes sense with the memories people put in, I can see why it led to those new feelings. Bootyyyshaker9000: Its just a strange thing to suddenly be confident in what I'm being told, or having a strange amount of fondness without the memories as to why. Bootyyyshaker9000: So its like I have the feeling of a bunch of bonding moments without remembering them. Bootyyyshaker9000: There hasn't been a lot that's changed about me specifically as far as I can tell. Bootyyyshaker9000: But no, I'm not the type to give up easily. Bootyyyshaker9000: Let's be fair, I'm prone to codependency. Bootyyyshaker9000: Growing up in isolation with just your family will do that. Bootyyyshaker9000: I can only imagine how bad we'd be if we didn't get lucky with April so we had One Strong Outsider Experience. Bootyyyshaker9000: Doesn't make understanding easier, but I do.
Bootyyyshaker9000: ...you are so unfair right now.
Nemurune: well Nemurune: there's a reason why i clocked raph as a big brother within 30 seconds of meeting him. a wash-shaped reason. Nemurune: they're very different people but the big brother vibes are real and they are powerful Nemurune: and/or the parent-aged adult vibes, in wash's case. Nemurune: he has this One Tone that has never failed to stop me in my tracks afaik and it is UNFAIR.
Nemurune: i haven't noticed any shifts in your personality fwiw Nemurune: your heart was very Nemurune: very ... Nemurune: bond-oriented? if we wanted to reach you, we had to open up. if we didn't open up, we wouldn't get any further than surface-level. so it makes sense, i guess, that the any changes were less about you as a person and more about your perception of others. Nemurune: which is still weird to experience, i know. Nemurune: ugh heart games  ̄へ ̄ Nemurune: i'm glad you had april-san, too, and that she had you guys Nemurune: and Nemurune: maybe i'm just repeating myself here, but i see you trying, dee-kun. it's hard and it's exhausting, but you're learning and you're trying. it counts for a lot. a LOT. i'm proud of you.
Bootyyyshaker9000: He does have strong parent aged adult vibes. Bootyyyshaker9000: He complimented my knowledge of plants once and now he does it all the time and it feels very targeted. Bootyyyshaker9000: Not in a bad way? Just Bootyyyshaker9000: What do
Bootyyyshaker9000: I mean Bootyyyshaker9000: It does make sense. Bootyyyshaker9000: Emotions are largely inconvenient and overwhelming. Bootyyyshaker9000: Except for hyperfixations and other people. Bootyyyshaker9000: Other people are still inconvenient, but Bootyyyshaker9000: I want them. Bootyyyshaker9000: But understanding is pretty necessary to get anywhere and its no fair if I'm not trying to understand them, its just hard to do it, especially if people aren't meeting them halfway.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I am. Trying. I'm trying so hard because a lot of Eggs also want people, but they're bad at going for what they want, but at least I'm ready to go for it and its helped with some of them in the past.
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Mostly in regards to who was in there. Its more noticeable with some than others.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Some of it makes sense with the memories people put in, I can see why it led to those new feelings.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Its just a strange thing to suddenly be confident in what I'm being told, or having a strange amount of fondness without the memories as to why.
Bootyyyshaker9000: So its like I have the feeling of a bunch of bonding moments without remembering them.
Bootyyyshaker9000: There hasn't been a lot that's changed about me specifically as far as I can tell.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But no, I'm not the type to give up easily.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Let's be fair, I'm prone to codependency.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Growing up in isolation with just your family will do that.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I can only imagine how bad we'd be if we didn't get lucky with April so we had One Strong Outsider Experience.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Doesn't make understanding easier, but I do.
Bootyyyshaker9000: ...you are so unfair right now.
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Nemurune: there's a reason why i clocked raph as a big brother within 30 seconds of meeting him. a wash-shaped reason.
Nemurune: they're very different people but the big brother vibes are real and they are powerful
Nemurune: and/or the parent-aged adult vibes, in wash's case.
Nemurune: he has this One Tone that has never failed to stop me in my tracks afaik and it is UNFAIR.
Nemurune: i haven't noticed any shifts in your personality fwiw
Nemurune: your heart was very
Nemurune: very ...
Nemurune: bond-oriented? if we wanted to reach you, we had to open up. if we didn't open up, we wouldn't get any further than surface-level. so it makes sense, i guess, that the any changes were less about you as a person and more about your perception of others.
Nemurune: which is still weird to experience, i know.
Nemurune: ugh heart games  ̄へ ̄
Nemurune: i'm glad you had april-san, too, and that she had you guys
Nemurune: and
Nemurune: maybe i'm just repeating myself here, but i see you trying, dee-kun. it's hard and it's exhausting, but you're learning and you're trying. it counts for a lot. a LOT. i'm proud of you.
Nemurune: ( ̄y▽ ̄)╭
Nemurune: i love you
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Bootyyyshaker9000: He complimented my knowledge of plants once and now he does it all the time and it feels very targeted.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Not in a bad way? Just
Bootyyyshaker9000: What do
Bootyyyshaker9000: I mean
Bootyyyshaker9000: It does make sense.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Emotions are largely inconvenient and overwhelming.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Except for hyperfixations and other people.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Other people are still inconvenient, but
Bootyyyshaker9000: I want them.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But understanding is pretty necessary to get anywhere and its no fair if I'm not trying to understand them, its just hard to do it, especially if people aren't meeting them halfway.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I am. Trying. I'm trying so hard because a lot of Eggs also want people, but they're bad at going for what they want, but at least I'm ready to go for it and its helped with some of them in the past.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I love you too.