Donatello "the air bud of war crimes" Hamato (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
othellovonryan) wrote2023-02-11 05:10 pm
othellovonryan) wrote2023-02-11 05:10 pm
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Noise
It starts as just irritation. A metaphorical crawling under your skin. Things are too noisy, too bright, there is too much happening all the time and you can't take it all in-
It sounds so inviting, a freedom from the noise, but its wrong, its wrong, its wrong and the noise is getting louder, mechanical and foreboding as it sees you, it knows you are there, and it wants to make you apart of it.
For a moment, there is quiet.
You breathe.
And fall through water.
It starts as just irritation. A metaphorical crawling under your skin. Things are too noisy, too bright, there is too much happening all the time and you can't take it all in-
Then silence it, make it yours, make it you, take control and destroy what will not submit
It sounds so inviting, a freedom from the noise, but its wrong, its wrong, its wrong and the noise is getting louder, mechanical and foreboding as it sees you, it knows you are there, and it wants to make you apart of it.
Anatawa hitorijanai
For a moment, there is quiet.
You breathe.
And fall through water.
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Is - um - is it wrong if I want to see what he thinks about me?
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Yes, but only if he promises to not get weird about the stuff I'm working on striking from the record!
[Oh, there's a purple robot box turtle who was sweeping up dried tentacle bits.]
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... Hi Donnie? Are you a robot??
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[Face just lights up, figuratively and literally.]
[Come over and ALSO going to sweep Hunter up in a friendly hug.]
And yes, I'm a robot. Cool, right?
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It - it is cool! It makes a lot of sense for you too.
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It really does. I do try to make sense.
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So - um, which one is mine?
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[He will show him to the screens with all the cycling pictures until he touches the keyboard and the screensaver memories go away to show a large number of icons of people's faces and their names. There are also things like 'Dr. Feelings Therapy Notes' and 'Emotional April Talks.']
[His icon currently has a red line under it.]
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Hunter considers the options for a moment, then tries to click on his face?? ]
This is a computer, right?
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[And well.]
Name: Hunter Noceda-Hamato (Does he have Mouse's last names? Will need to check.)
Age: 16 (Grimwalker might mean he's younger, unknown, but he's functionally 16.)
Height: 180cm/5'11
Team: Mouse
Objectives: Receive approval, gentle affection (try to be more affectionate for him), wear a mask, sewing, read books for fun
Taboos: Kneel or bow, refuse a direct order (try to avoid giving orders when not sure he will agree to do something), insult someone on purpose, yell HUMAN!! at someone, hide the truth from someone he trusts
Cultist Thoughts: What IS this thing, exactly? Better make sure it gets dissected eventually. (Fuck the cultists for this especially.)
Attractiveness: 10/10.
Relationship Feelings:
Romantic?Familial???ROMANTIC?!?!FAMILIAL DAMNIT!!!! No cubes!Gift Ideas: Cardinals, wolves, magic related stuff, books on magic and sci fi, sewing supplies. Red and gold colors.
Ninpo: He has been able to access the mindmeld and he can be felt in the Ninpo. We can feel when he cuts off. He loses the enchantment when he dies, but it was easier to attach the Ninpo to him the second time. It didn't feel as draining. It could be that its easier to do the second time with practice, or maybe its more akin the Ninpo recognizes him and that allows him to be attached easier. It would be best he doesn't die again, but I'll need to pay careful attention next time if it does happen. It might be the Ninpo needs to acclimate to his soul before he can be fully assimilated. It may also help if he uses the Ninpo more. He should be able to use it to cast, its shown to be intuitively adaptable. The stronger he could get with it, the better the odds it'll become permanent. At least I think so. I want it to. Sometimes wishing helps it along.
World Notes: He is from a high magic world, though there has been crossover with a human world that doesn't sound too dissimilar from my own. Probably no Hidden City or mutants, but it can't necessarily be discounted, but either way, the 'public' appearance is low to no magic.
The Boiling Isles is full of witches and demons of various magical capability, but at least some ability. Its seen as an oddity to not have magic. There are palismen, which are living beings made out of trees. There is a caste system, but that seems to have been enforced from Belos and thus will hopefully dissolve soon enough. The Isles started from the dead body of a giant being. The natives are able to consume things that would be lethal for humans. Witches seem to be the ones to look the most human with pointy ears. Demons can look more like Yokai or mutants. The physical variation is great enough to have a wider range of beauty standards.
There is wild magic that was forbidden by Belos. It uses the ambient or more natural magic versus an internal power source of the natives. Glyphs are able to command ambient magic in a variety of ways and seems to operate more like a circuit. Figuring out specific commands is hard, but odds are good the patterns will be consistent when figured out.
Validation Source: He is a precious friend and every compliment should be treasured and he's fairly free at giving it.
Analysis: I will never forget the feeling of meeting someone and clicking near instantly. Nor do I think I could ever express my gratitude for Hunter for those first ten days. I had never been away from my family for more than a few hours, and to suddenly be so cut off had been maddening. And terrifying. I felt like I was on the edge of a panic attack for so much of that time, and Hunter had been the most comfort. He felt safe. Sure, I had others I bonded to, but there had been a weird hang up or misunderstanding.
But not Hunter.
Hunter made it easy to feel normal, at least for a while. I didn't feel that division for a moment, that aching loneliness wasn't so keen. I felt seen as an equal around him, someone who would depend on me and I could depend on them. It had been so easy to fall into a friendship with him. It had been so easy to understand him. To trust him. I needed that grounding.
Someone who understood. Someone who knew what it was like to be so delighted by things with an intensity others usually didn't have. Someone who much preferred things being straight forward and honest. Who wanted to learn, who was so passionate in their subject of choice to want to know all they could. Someone who was used to seeing what they lacked compared to others, and fearing what that difference might mean.
I want to keep him in my life. I wanted to help him have options, to be all that he could be, to use all that knowledge and passion he had to its fullest extent. I wanted to take the trust he gave me with the truth to help him feel like he belonged. I knew I would do anything to give Hunter that feeling when Leo showed up and I still wanted to try and share the Ninpo with him. It wasn't simple projection, it was because I wanted to be connected to Hunter. I know its not an offer I would make to just anyone, its too important.
The more I saw Hunter, the more I wanted. I wanted to find the things that made him smile. I wanted him to know what a family could really be like. I wanted him to have friends who would do anything for him. I wanted him to pursue his passions. I wanted him to never have to feel like he has to fight a battle alone, that he has to endure a terrible situation in silence. I want Hunter to be able to enjoy what its like to be a normal teen.
I
havehadhavehad a crush on him. I hadn't been ready to admit that when Leo had said brother and Hunter had been so happy, I thought it best to let go of those feelings. Hunter's happiness was more important then a potentially fleeting teenage infatuation. Hunter had been the rock I needed when I was alone and I want to be his, and I know I can love him as family without a doubt. I know I will always want his happiness.And if I'm the rock, then I can absolutely help him and Leo end up together. Leo may have a blindspot to people appreciating him, but I've never seen reason to doubt his ability to understand his own emotions. I don't think he will enter a relationship lightly, so if he agrees to go out with Hunter, he must see genuine longterm potential. Leo's always been better at navigating emotions, so whatever the outcome, I trust Leo to make sure its one that can be recovered from. Still, I hope it does work out.
Hunter deserves to feel special like that, he deserves to feel like he's chosen. Not just taken into a family, but that someone is willing to say 'you're my favorite' over anyone else without obligation. And Leo deserves to feel that too. Yes, I'm fine with this outcome. I can do what I can to help them end up together. Now if only I could get Leo to stop acting so cagey about the future, it makes it very hard to gauge what he's open to right now.
Though if I'm accepting any potential negative outcome, I suppose it doesn't hurt to see if the jealousy angle is worth something. Leo has always loved to compete. If I could get him at least thinking about it, it might lessen his tendency to blind himself.I just hope I can help Hunter be able to embrace what he has more. He's afraid to lose us. Ha, a Hamato doesn't let someone go when they decide to let them in. In time he'll understand, once someone is ours, its forever. Our superpowers are literally family powered and while that doesn't protect us from stupidity and hurt, it does mean the loyalty is without compare. I know its a trait he has as well, even to his own detriment at times. He deserves to be in a place where its rewarded and returned.
Maybe the first steps is getting him to share his passions more. I know he worries about me not liking magic, but honestly, he's one of the first people I enjoyed listening to about it because he actually tries to understand it, not just how to make it work. Most of my disdain was how few answers there were and how little interest there seemed to be in finding those answers, but someone who wants to know all about it? That sounds fun. Not that I wouldn't listen anyway. Sometimes its nice to be humored, but I know having someone interested is always better than simply humored. I'm glad I can do that for him despite my rocky mystic history.
I want to protect the happiness he has now. I want him to go with support like I was able to. I won't let Belos ever have him again. He was the one who couldn't see the good thing he had and I won't let him take Hunter from the world.
I can't let anything hurt Hunter anymore, or at least not more than necessary. At least the earring will make it easier to capture him.Its impressive Hunter is the way he is despite Belos. I think that's the most admirable thing about Him. He's smart and passionate and he works hard, but he's also incredibly kind. He is genuinely a good person at heart and he doesn't struggle to get to that person of kindness despite everything. He's certainly a more naturally kinder person than I am. Despite everything, despite how much Belos tried to crush him, he held onto the core of himself. That takes so much strength and I hope Hunter can see that one day.
In conclusion, there is little I won't do to make sure Hunter lives a better, happier life, one where he can embrace everything about himself without fear. He's certainly made mine happier.
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Hunter is immediately going to start crying, for starters. he frankly only reads through the first half before his vision gets too blurry to see. ]
I - I do feel understood by Donnie too. A-and I'm glad he though the same about me. I had friends back home, but it wasn't ... wasn't quite like this.
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Its really different. I wouldn't trade that experience for anything.
I'm glad I got to experience it with you.
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[ He swipes at his face and ... reads the rest ... ]
He, uh. He really did have a crush on me.
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[He shrugs ruefully.]
Leo is great and you're great and I love you both and want you to be happy. So I want it to work out.
Even if Leo is being weird and a dumb-dumb about his future.
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But ... yeah. Uh. Talk to him about it.
[ He's going to keep clicking - wait, does Orion have one too? ]
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[There is indeed another icon that says Orion (Guard)]
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[ He clicks on Orion (Guard) then! ]