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Noise.

It starts as just irritation. A metaphorical crawling under your skin. Things are too noisy, too bright, there is too much happening all the time and you can't take it all in-

Then silence it, make it yours, make it you, take control and destroy what will not submit

It sounds so inviting, a freedom from the noise, but its wrong, its wrong, its wrong and the noise is getting louder, mechanical and foreboding as it sees you, it knows you are there, and it wants to make you apart of it.

Anatawa hitorijanai

For a moment, there is quiet.

You breathe.

And fall through water.

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[There is no latch nor hinge on this box. It is perfectly sealed. But like, it also doesn't seem to be made out of particular tough material.]

Its not about what happened, its about the fact you'll just let things happen because you're too good a person!

Both you and Leo are so willing to sacrifice yourselves for the world or strangers or people you don't owe ANYTHING to and will just leave us behind!

[ Ohhhh.

Okay that one gets to him a little. ]

Donatello Purple Splinterson Hamato, you know dang well that it's not that cut 'n dry!

[ ATTEMPTS TO PUNCH HIS REGULAR FIST THROUGH THE SIDE OF THE BOX. Two birds with one stone, a little vent and. He doesn't really know what, he just figures he should see what's in here. ]

Why can't it be?! We don't owe the world anything! Why do we have to be the ones who have to suffer and hurt and almost die for people who would freak out if we ever just walked down the street without pretending to be cosplayers?!

[That box crumples oh so easily and in a burst of energetic red, there is now]

[Raph]

[Made of red light so like]

[There is So Much Raphing in this room.]

[Welcome to Borrowed Mind Raph, this is surely not trippy]

Edited 2023-02-14 01:26 (UTC)

[ Surely not. It derails Raph from the argue train immediately.

Raph, Mind Raph and Donnie Raph. Raphs for days.

He tries to access his end of the Mind Raph timeshare but his little thought bubble just has an 'out of office' sign pinned to it.

Home turf rights, probably. Fair enough. ]

Brains are so confusing.

[Funny how that works.]

Brains are SO confusing. [Agrees Mind Raph.] He keeps me around to help, but Raph doesn't know what he expects for help when he keeps shoving me in a box.

I don't need your guidance, I can figure it out myself! I just need the ninpo connection!

[Mind Raph gestures at Donnie, see what he has to deal with! The disrespect!]

[ it's part of donnie punching's not the answer it's part of donnie punching's not the answer it's part of donnie that's been messed with so punching right now is not the answer ]

Which one is it, bud.

Are we brothers you wanna protect or ninpo batteries you wanna keep fresh?

Brothers I want to protect. That's just the manifestation of the connection.

He also thinks we might be remnants of each other when we use the ninpo together. Mental echo stuff.

There is no proof of that, its not like Raph and Mikey aren't proof of mental splintering. Either idea is perfectly valid!

Yeah, he gets like this. Grab the chain. Mind Raph can't interact with it.

Funny way of showin' it.

[ Mental splintering! Rude! Just because a guy has a mind self and drill sergeant self and a survival-focused animalistic self that he never talks to and doesn't remember... smh.

Donnie would have ninpo connection theories, huh.

Raph pinches the bridge of his. beak i guess. snoot. turtle nose.

He'll try grabbing the chain because his hope is that the next step will be breaking of chains. ]

You dumb dumbs force me to extrem-

[Chain grabbed and IMMEDIATELY SITTING THE FUCK DOWN]

[All aggression gone, far more chill, calmer vibe.]

Yeah, that goes to the parts of Donnie that try to not be completely unhinged in his security measures. He's been free roaming for days, really leaning into that whole control issues thing.

[ Ah. So probably not further breaking of chain. The opposite of that. ]

So there's a brain buddy system.

[ Mind stuff. Confusing. Never not confusing. Raph frowns down at it. ]

What's he normally attached to?

[Sometimes you need to leash your Extreme Impulses.]

Selfishness and Relations. Relations thinks about how people will react and Selfishness decides what's the happiest thing.

Like not putting family and friends in jail bunkers.

Its one to two traumas versus the ten or more we're likely to have by the time the snake is dead. Leo has a drowning trauma! A turtle has a drowning trauma!

That does not give the okay for throwing everyone in a box! [The long suffering Big Brother Sigh.]

The snake grabbed Sacrifice and now Donnie doesn't care if he's miserable and those rooms got wrecked.

Edited 2023-02-14 02:25 (UTC)

[ He's glad Mind Raph has defaulted to home turf rules here. There's clearly a very real need.

Plus someone to carry the argument torch while regular Raph absorbs and processes.

One thing at a time. What does he do to start helping? ]

Okay. Hook Selfishness and Relations back up. Get Sacrifice back so he cares about fixin' all the messed-up stuff going on. Help him boot the Kraang stuff in a big way. Get this corruption nipped in the bud.

Bide my time.

Personally eat the snake god for touchin' him.

[ It's a lot of goals in theory but he likes laying things out. ]

Donnie thinks different. Selfishness will care about fixing things back up. Sacrifice will help push him farther if he needs to, but he probably doesn't need to push really far with everyone getting he was mind zombie'd.

Being mind zombie'd is a pretty understandable reason for why people went off the deep end. [This is just a pointed message from Donnie Home Turf Mind Raph for Real Raph. As a treat.]

Sacrifice usually doesn't play a big role, he didn't even have his own room until the invasion. That's why things got so messed up so fast. And why he started using Kraang stuff. He went from 0 to 60 way too fast.

[Just gotta throw that out there! Good for Raph to understand how Donnie thinks, mind Raph knows the mental hoops just Aren't Built The Same.]

[But he will offer a fist bump for Eat The Snake God. That is very valid.]

[ Most valuable brother-translation resource, from the mind of the brother. Sort of.

Donnie's never been bad at laying out an A to B for him. Both of them kind of talking through the steps of where they're coming from. Raph feels A Way that it's still happening even now.

Donnie thinks different. Gotta remember that. Meet him where he's at. Try to understand.

He is completing the fist bump. Ignoring or pretending to ignore his personal pointed message about mind zombieing. ]

Then Selfishness first. If either of you guys has directions, now's the time to share.

[ Not that he wouldn't stubbornly slam his head into figuring it out until he got it for himself anyway, but you know. ]

Selfishness just gets in the way. It just holds us back from doing what we need to do!

They keep you from hurting yourself.

Craft a door and put the emotion for the room you want in it. Memories if the door is being difficult. If you focus on it, it should appear as a craftable item? Its weird mind stuff.

[ Oh so emotions and memories also become crafting resources in Mindcraft. Right on. Raph is good at having emotions, at least.

Thumbs up. And then with that free hand, a headrub for Robo Snapper Donnie. We'll get you fixed up bud don't worry. ]

Very weird. But I guess we live in a snake cult compound right now, so. [ Stuff's weird all the time anyway. ] Donnie, if you're not listening to Mind Raph anyway, don't stick him in a box again. It's, uhh. Waste of box materials.

[ Inventory, inventory... stone, iron ore, raft, wood... well, door first things first. Gonna try to make an iron doorknob and stick it on the raft to create Big Door. ]

...I guess it is a waste of materials.

Should buy a little time. I think I'm good until the Kraang Sacrifice notices, anyway. [Its all a little hard to track, but HOPEFULLY.]

[Raph now has One Blank Door.]

[ A little bit of logic working, as a treat. Hopefully he can kick up some Kraang distraction materiel before it gets to a whole. Whatever would even happen that would probably be awful.

(They'll get it out. They will. They have to.)

But that's not helpful for a selfishness doorway. Raph is going for the memory option just because he's not sure he's got a selfishness-right-now override for all the other stuff he's feeling.

So he's gonna load this door with one of the many, many times he instigated rock paper scissors for first pizza slice dibs and deliberately paired off with Mikey for the easy win. Maybe git good, babiest brother. ]

[True selfishness at its finest]

[Its Donnie's room, okay]

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